willowtree2
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You hit the nail on the head there. Perfect example of how Ash feels no guilt. No feeling. Just pure cold-heartedness.Ughhhh I can’t even stand to watch or read about her caesarean recovery or rush of love she experienced with Ada.
I never had that feeling with my daughter and it makes me feel so upset to think about. I was too exhausted after a 70 hour labour and trying not to lose consciousness during my emergency caesarean to be able to even think straight. Of course I was so relieved and grateful she was safe, but I didn’t have the energy to feel anything. I was traumatised and numb.
I can’t believe she has the audacity to say “I think Alf will be fine because he knows he’s loved now” when I haven’t even admitted out loud to my own husband how I felt, because I worry how it sounds and that it makes me a bad person. I’d be devastated if my daughter ever knew. I also think I’d feel so guilty and sad if I experienced the perfect healing rush of love birth with my 2nd compared to my 1st. Ashley you are a bleeping emotionless robot as far as I’m concerned.
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I didn’t have that rush either. I’d never tell my child that. I’d just birthed a whopper vaginally (much bigger than Alf was) Had a PPH and sepsis AND had a midwife forcing a baby to breastfeed without asking if I even wanted to. I was thinking what the bloody hell is going on? That is completely different to what she’s talking about.
We don’t have the rush of love but we love them SO much once reconnection is made. There’s never been one there with Alf to start with. Then came resentment for ruining her life.
Ughhhhh she needs a goddamn psychotherapist.