I’m feeling so guilty, we had a note through the door from local churches to help anyone isolating. We can’t get a delivery of food until after Easter from the supermarket, and I’ve had that booked a couple of weeks, so it’s been really worrying. We’re a fairly large family, pets too We’re isolating as I have some health condtions and 2 asthmatics in the house, hubby and son had asthma since childhood. We have no help outside our own family as our parents are isolating as both our fathers are in risk groups with type 1 and my dad has a low white cell count so he’s more susceptible to infection. I called the number for help and the vicar offered to do our food shopping for us. Wow, the guilt. I burst into tears when he offered, as did my daughter. I gave him a list of essentials, he did a good sized shop for us for £66 and dropped it at our front door, knocked then waited at the end of our drive. He said he didn’t want to leave it there as there was a 24 pack of toilet rolls
He said if we need any further supplies before Easter to call him and to not feel any guilt. He is late 40s, he and his wife are so kind, they live around the corner from us.
I just keep feeling so guilty because we’re in our early 40s, we shouldn’t be relying on others and we never have before. We've always had limited support from family and never even had a date night in 18 years would you believe, so it felt really strange asking for help and someone really wanting to help us, it caused me so much emotion. I know it’s not my husbands fault he has asthma and I have my health conditions. We've always taken good care of our health, but things happen I guess. I suffered a sexual assault (date rape drug) on a night out with friends a decade ago and all the trauma and stress led to me developing some health conditions that cause debilitating fatigue. Yet here I am feeling so much guilt. My husband, daughters and son have told me off and say it’s a lovely thing that’s happened today, I shouldn’t feel any guilt as millions are in our situation.
When this is over I shall be visiting the vicar and his wife with a donation and a box of chocolates for them. They really were our heroes today in our hour of need. I know I shouldn’t justify myself but I feel I have to, as I feel so guilty about today, what a lovely man and woman they are, I’m always going to be so grateful to them.