Again Bloody hell!! Where do you live? if it's anywhere near Hertfordshire you can use my car to go see your mum and when you go see her stay there and never come home again until he is gone or you have somewhere else to live.
I mean that from the bottom of my heart..
I have regretted many things in my life but never once regretted leaving my ex-husbands. Living in a toxic environment is not good for children or you.
I'm only just hearing more about how my kids felt and how things affected them mentally before we left and they are in their 40s now. You think kids won't remember, or they get over things easy.. yes in one way they do but not in all ways.
Wishing you al the luck and courage in the world to do what you want to do. its not selfish to want a better life but the world right now seems to be full of people telling others how selfish they are. it's to guilt-trip you. put your fingers in your ears and sing louadly