TiffanyThinks #3

[Millieminion]

It wouldn’t be from morphine because it makes you drowsy, lethargic, nauseous, a bit “dumb” because it dulls everything (I know from experience as well). Though it can make you agitated. If Tiffany is in excruciating pain, it won’t necessarily make her tired enough to sleep… also cuz it causes constipation, but it should lower her level of pain. As for being wired, if she’s on some type of stimulant, antidepressant or steroids, then those could play a part in insomnia and agitation, but we’ve not heard about that.

To me, her state doesn’t look drug-induced, but fear-induced (stress) along with denial working in overdrive to convince herself everything’s gonna be okay “because it has to be in the end”. Her narrative is consistent in that respect, but it’s getting more and more frantic and desperate, esp in this vlog. She’s not prepared for what’s next and deep down she knows it. I’m also worried about a breakdown on the horizon.

I agree,it's fear induced because it the dead of night with nobody to talk to and no shopping to keep her occupied the reality hits,there's only so much a person can block things out,the fact that her life has changed forever must be terrifying but the sooner she accepts it the sooner she can work on figuring out how to navigate her new life.

 

[Badg69]

Sadly, that is why the surgeon said opting for surgery 6 weeks ago would have been kinder on her mental state of health (so confirmed Matt when they got into the car after meeting with surgeon). She quickly retorted but my mental state is fine/ok. I will always remember that scene...

What did the surgeon mean by that comment? Why would surgery be kinder? Because it increases her chances of a successful outcome? Why watch and wait then?

 

[Daisychain4]

Watch the YT channel Jenny Apple. She is a young woman with a beautiful family dealing with stage 4 cancer. What an amazing husband she has. She is so authentic and humble when she has been on a terrifying journey. They are making memories for her two kids and hubby. Watch her videos then Tiffany’s and you will see what true beauty, grace and courage looks like. I smile and shed some tears when you listen to her story. On the otherhand, Tiffany has several viewers who comment that they are facing stage 4 terminal illnesses, or recently diagnosed cancers and she never ever, that I see, gives them a heart or well wishes reply. Never. This tells you a lot about her mind set and her true selfishness. No empathy for others IMO.

That is so true! I noted that myself a few weeks back
and since then I have been diligently reading and searching for any comments Tiffany makes to acknowledge ’anyone’ who mentions that they too, have cancer or are currently undergoing chemo or radiation therapy for cancer. Tiffany absolutely NEVER acknowledges these courageous followers. No compassion, no positive comments, no love, no caring, no words of support or wisdom, no blue hearts … nothing!!!
To me, that’s lower than a grave diggers boots!!!!
Says lots about who you are … especially when you advocate Christianity and talk the talk.
Lots of taking $$$$$ … not a whole lot of giving !

 

[J3N1800]

What did the surgeon mean by that comment? Why would surgery be kinder? Because it increases her chances of a successful outcome? Why watch and wait then?

It might have been kinder because it appeared to be what she wanted and was mentally preparing herself for - she was pushing for surgery and a date to have it removed and seemed to have her sights set on recovery.
When the first round of treatment didn't shrink the tumour and the scale of the procedure was acknowledged, it became a bit more of a debate which would be the best option for her - which is why she mentioned Quantity/Quality of life!
I just hope the six weeks hasn't resulted in growth to the extent of her becoming unoperable, which the doctor said would be a risk!

 

[jackolantern]

That’s something I don’t understand. She said her doctors advised her to watch and wait. If they knew she could become inoperable and therefore terminal in as little as 6 weeks - what doctor in their right mind would suggest that? Seems to me the only logical explanation is they know it isn’t curative and therefore it doesn’t matter in the scheme of things.

 

[Cariad]

That’s something I don’t understand. She said her doctors advised her to watch and wait. If they knew she could become inoperable and therefore terminal in as little as 6 weeks - what doctor in their right mind would suggest that? Seems to me the only logical explanation is they know it isn’t curative and therefore it doesn’t matter in the scheme of things.

I don't think she was ever operable...and even if by some miracle she ever had been, I seriously doubt she would cope with the extensive surgery

 

[jackolantern]

I don't think she was ever operable...and even if by some miracle she ever had been, I seriously doubt she would cope with the extensive surgery

I think either that, or the surgeon has sadly changed his mind :'( Either because he made a mistake in the first place or because he knows she can't physically or mentally handle it.

 

[victoriabelle304]

Yes she always says that what she needs is distractions. She said that if she is alone she has to face the thoughts in her head so she prefers doing things. That's why she goes here and there, meets her sister, her nephew, goes to the garden centre.
I hope she made that appointment for counselling. I remember her admitting in an earlier vlog that she is not good at opening up. She is a chatterbox and likes to talk but not about anything of substance. Her fixation on superficial and material things could be her coping mechanism.

Exactly! Reminds me of her first Tea With TiffanyThinks video where she said when the doctor called her in urgently to tell her she had cancer that she tried to make small talk with him about his vacation beforehand until he quickly shut that tit down and said "My vacation was fine. Tiffany you have cancer."

She would've waffled on chatting about nothing as a distraction as long as the doctor would've let her.

 

[ginnyw]

It's extraordinary isn't it, that we're still all debating and speculating Tiffany's situation on a daily basis - I can't remember anybody ever having caused quite so much confusion and yes, intrigue?

 

[J3N1800]

It's extraordinary isn't it, that we're still all debating and speculating Tiffany's situation on a daily basis - I can't remember anybody ever having caused quite so much confusion and yes, intrigue?

I'm eager to see what the next few week's of videos consist of - finally some explanations, or even further confusions

 

[victoriabelle304]

When the first round of treatment didn't shrink the tumour and the scale of the procedure was acknowledged, it became a bit more of a debate which would be the best option for her - which is why she mentioned Quantity/Quality of life!

Remember how in her 'Telling my family about my cancer' story time video how she said she was adamant about not doing any treatments and not wanting to lose her hair or go to the hospital? Apparently her aunts/uncles/sister/cousins were like "No!! You have to try everything and fight this." I think Tiffany oscillates between periods of wanting to do nothing and let the disease take her as long as she can live in denial and wanting surgery to magically make her 'cancer free.' At the moment she wants to do nothing and pretend she's healed so she can enjoy her Christmas.

When she has moments of quiet (like in her latest vlog) and there are no aunties and uncles and nieces/nephews to distract her, she goes absolutely mad and starts to break down. I really do fear for her mental state when her next scans resume because she's already tricked herself into thinking she's cancer free and she's gonna spend the next couple of months prepping her Christmas presents and drinking hot chocolate with her darling Matt every day. She knows deep down that there's a very real possibility she could be spending the holidays in the hospital and she has not accepted that yet.

 

[ginnyw]

Regarding eating disorders, I'm not sure she has one. I remember when I was 30 I was just really skinny whatever I ate. Sadly when I hit 40 and discovered domestic bliss, ie cooking a lot of roast dinners, I became less so!

 

[justmakemoney]

Remember how in her 'Telling my family about my cancer' story time video how she said she was adamant about not doing any treatments and not wanting to lose her hair or go to the hospital? Apparently her aunts/uncles/sister/cousins were like "No!! You have to try everything and fight this." I think Tiffany oscillates between periods of wanting to do nothing and let the disease take her as long as she can live in denial and wanting surgery to magically make her 'cancer free.' At the moment she wants to do nothing and pretend she's healed so she can enjoy her Christmas.

When she has moments of quiet (like in her latest vlog) and there are no aunties and uncles and nieces/nephews to distract her, she goes absolutely mad and starts to break down. I really do fear for her mental state when her next scans resume because she's already tricked herself into thinking she's cancer free and she's gonna spend the next couple of months prepping her Christmas presents and drinking hot chocolate with her darling Matt every day. She knows deep down that there's a very real possibility she could be spending the holidays in the hospital and she has not accepted that yet.

Bullseye.

 

[Karolina1985]

That’s something I don’t understand. She said her doctors advised her to watch and wait. If they knew she could become inoperable and therefore terminal in as little as 6 weeks - what doctor in their right mind would suggest that? Seems to me the only logical explanation is they know it isn’t curative and therefore it doesn’t matter in the scheme of things.

I agree with you although one thing doesn't add up. If she is terminal why her Mother, her family and Matt are even allowing her to think that she's cancer free? If this is the case they should be booking an interventional meeting with psychologist asap. The longer she lives in her bubble of denial, the worse her breakdown will be.

 

[jackolantern]

I agree with you although one thing doesn't add up. If she is terminal why her Mother, her family and Matt are even allowing her to think that she's cancer free? If this is the case they should be booking an interventional meeting with psychologist asap. The longer she lives in her bubble of denial, the worse her breakdown will be.

From what we've seen of Matt he could be as in denial as she and maybe Amma just doesn't know?

 

[Karolina1985]

From what we've seen of Matt he could be as in denial as she and maybe Amma just doesn't know?

It's honestly mind blowing that two people can be in denial when they have all the papers in front of their eyes with nothing but truth.

 

[Idrisrex]

She knows deep down that there's a very real possibility she could be spending the holidays in the hospital and she has not accepted that yet.

Not only the holidays, but the coming months when she goes on with the operation. I have read on the internet that a hospital stay of 6-8 months after a pe operation is not an exception.

But an whole other thing. Who has made the picture for the thumbnail of her in the middle of the night in her bathrobe looking very worried in that pose for her latest milk video ??

 

[Wildflowerss]

Didn't someone write earlier that the expensive concealer she promoted that she's trying has a yellow or green hue?

The whites of her eyes are clear and not yellowish so I think its lighting and her tone.

 

[ginnyw]

The whites of her eyes are clear and not yellowish so I think its lighting and her tone.

Yeah - I don't think there's actually any liver involvement going on, or at least, not at the moment.

 

[BCrowl]

I'm eager to see what the next few week's of videos consist of - finally some explanations, or even further confusions

I would say it will be even further confusions. We should be getting a “Tea with Tiffany” later on today. I wonder what the subject will be.

The whites of her eyes are clear and not yellowish so I think its lighting and her tone.

Yes, that’s what I was thinking. Her whites of her eyes are very white. I think when she was in the paint shop, she looked yellow because of the bright lights. My late Mom had a yellow undertone, and so do I. Mom would never wear a yellow sweater as someone told her she looked too yellow when she wore one to school lol