I actually think she does gain strength when recording her journey. She said as much as to picking up her camera when she was in without Kyle. I do fast forward as I find it difficult to watch protracted pain and the
expression of it, just because I feel helpless. Plus, this video was recorded a couple days ago, so it's long past and she's already in a different space. But, I do get a sense that she just wants to share it all, through everything, and she finds it helpful when she's feeling something overwhelming. When she recorded right before the procedure, I felt that her picking it up and recording was bolstering her courage, as though we were there with her.
But, I do find the videos long sometimes, so I admit to skipping ahead. She does do the eating music and walking music things, so, the videos have some extraneous things that I skip over. So, she's not without tricks. But, I get more of a sense that they want to record their entire life. Period. So, I do skip over a lot. Her video titles ARE what she claims the video to be about, so at least it's not clickbait like someone else we know.