C'est moi
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I know this feeling too. For any family parties, going out to dinner (exceptionally rare), travelling, I had to wear my school uniform. This was right up until mid secondary school, so about 13 or 14. If I wasn't wearing school uniform, it was dresses my mother had run up on the sewing machine truly believing they were shop quality. My mother cut my hair in what she called a "page boy" style but was, in fact, a pudding bowl cut. As an ado, I had exceptionally greasy hair but was only allowed to wash it once a week! I never had anything but stout, brown lace up school shoes with ½ inch heels. I used to stay with my grandmother for most of the summer holidays and the 1st week was spent buying me trendy shoes and clothes. It was the end of the 60's into the mid 70's. On return home the clothes would be taken away and got rid of. She made me incredibly self conscious of my body that it became too embarrassing and painful to change in public places. Then I rebelled big time! And every now and then I hear questions from her like - I wonder where I went wrong? She did her absolute utmost to make me unattractive.I sort of know of this feeling...
During my childhood in the 90's my mother through depression and narc tendencies dressed me constantly in polyester/cotton tracksuits.
Even during warm summer days and all the other children wore t-shirts and shorts, I was forced down into my tracksuit.
I'll never forget the look a boy gave me as he saw me walk out the schoolbus wearing long sleeves and trousers sweating profusely in the summer heat, as he wore t-shirt and shorts.
To day I only wear tracksuits in the gym, I'd prefer nudity over tracksuits, that's how much I dislike them.