Ive lost my mam, and literally thought i would die without her, UNTIL, a few years later, i lost my only child in a terrible road crash.....Honestly, it is the worst thing in the world, the pain is EXCRUTIATING! For me i suppose, because i was there and saw EVERYTHING, the trauma, the nightmares, the what ifs, and "why didnt I" took over for years.....I couldnt walk, hardly wash myself, even breathing was exhausting, i can never ever explain the exhaustion, like my body was shutting down. For us, even though it was in the papers etc at the time (my family members are well known sports people) they put in photos of the crashed vehicles, and us walking behind the hearse, which was disgusting to look at months afterwards.
We kept our grief private, and i wouldnt dream of sharing those photos after my child died. I know everyone is different in grief, but i want my child to be remembered for how he lived, not how he died....