amarantine
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I feel like she’s doing what I know I do when I’m having a hard time which is to just not to anything to make things better. I know when I’m having a hard time that I just put off finding out about things or doing things that could help and just get stuck in some sort of paralysis! I know I do it though and I do try actively not to do it, but it just feels a lot like she’s doing that too. Surely she knows she would feel better and have a happier life if she wasn’t living a nomadic lifestyle with Lordon and she was settled in London with an opportunity to meet herself a nice (well, wealthy) chap who works in the city but she won’t make the decision until she feels like she has had the “signs” - because she’s putting off making that decision and wants it to be made by something external rather than her. I could just be talking tit by projecting my own occasional state of mind onto Niomi, but, I don’t know…Yea, she’s in total denial that all her own choices have landed her in this spot. She makes herself feel better by saying “oh moon I’m just on my right path now, everything will be ok, everything happens in its own time”. Anytime something doesn’t go according to plan it’s just “it’s a sign from the universe I’m on the wrong path”, Instead of taking a hard look at herself and having some accountability.