Helllooooo, anyone up? Just me.
Sooooooo in a chatty mood cause I am pissed. Gonna tell you my life story, like I tell the kebab man except he's bored of it.
Essay incoming! Married for 20 years, very happy, no problems. Went on holiday to the Netherlands. Massive thunderstorm woke me up one night, husband wasn't in bed. Looked out the front of the chalet we were in and saw him fucking the Dutch munter next door! She was married with a 2 year old daughter. I kept my shit together until we were back in the UK and told him I wanted a divorce. For 18 years of our marriage he was in the army, I've always trusted him when he was away. When I caught him with ugly Dutch woman he swore it was the only time he cheated on me. I told him I couldn't trust him because if I hadnt woke up I would never have known about that occasion so how could I trust him about anything else
He made me feel sick every time I looked at him so I divorced his cheating fucking arse. We stayed friends after the divorce more so for the boys but 20 years is a long time to cut someone out of your life. Anyway a year after we divorced he fell ill and ended up in an induced coma, after 10 days I gave the instruction to turn off the machines as he had a massive bleed on the brain and there was no coming back from it. So that was me, divorced and widowed in one year and left with 3 grieving teenage boys.That was four years ago, I haven't dated anyone since because he really did a fucking number on me and I don't think I can trust any man again. Maybe one day, I dont know.
Regardless of the above shit I'm happy, my boys are thriving and have coped amazingly. I have to say this has been cathartic for me as I have never explained the full reason to friends and family of our divorce, just said we had grown apart.
Will probably wake up Tomorrow and think what the actual fuck.