I'm really upset. I got rejected from both jobs. When is it my time for luck? I never catch a break. I'm fuckin stuck in tit customer service jobs. Any time I try so hard to get out. It's like everything is in the odds for me to fail. I've had so many rejections.
I'm so embarrassed. I'm 22, I've achieved absolutely nothing in my life. I left school thinking my future was bright. I left with amazing grades but I'm trapped in minimum wage shop jobs because I cannot cope with higher education. I feel sick with shame. I've cried so much I've threw up. I finished work an hour ago and I've sat in my car crying my eyes out. I haven't went home yet.
I know I'm still young but I'm in the same position I was 4 years ago. In a tit job with no prospects, tit mental health and still suffering from the same eating disorder that forced me to drop out almost 5 years ago and I can't get any access for help.
I feel like no matter how hard I try I always get kicked down to earth any time I feel like things might be looking up