I am sure in the same way you are bored of JM, you must be bored of me dipping on here every now and again to say the same thing (at least I’m self aware!) - she fucking infuriates me as a person in recovery and I’m actually in tears looking the stories on these threads of those who have lost someone to the evil of addiction. I’m sorry. I know it’s shit for you during the alcoholism when we are utter arseholes and hard to love and the absolute grief/relief/guilt when we pass. I didn’t until I found recovery.
look maybe Jack is but I yet to see evidence of recovery as opposed to sobriety - there is a difference. I didn’t dare broadcast my sobriety for several reasons until I had some proper time because:
1. I was sick of hurting my family over and over by doing that and then drinking
2. It’s ego based and you only ever have today
3. In the real world where you aren’t JM and don’t thrive on being defined as an alcoholic, it’s still pretty stigma based if people don’t understand it, and you are always the “Alcoholic” even when sober and
4. And this was my biggest reason - I was shit feared every day I would fuck it up and drink again.
Recovery is not pissing about with your hair, pretending to hate social media whilst courting it, finding it all fairly easy and thriving off it.
Recovery for me was rehab, finally giving up my job, career, money, relationships. THE LOT. Admitting I was a bit of a cunt. Having hard conversations with loved ones who has heard it all before and were fuming, whether I was sick or not; too scared to leave my bedroom some days let alone face social Media as I just couldn’t cope and was riddled with anxiety. It was hell early days, utter hell. I couldn’t sponsor a donkey let along another person or offer any sort of assistance yet this cunt is Marie Von Trapp. It makes a mockery of alcoholism, it’s so much more complex and she is still suffering majorly whether sober or not (happy to explain alcoholism for an alcoholic if anyone is interested. JM could find it interesting)
