Went to the doctor about being fat. It went
ok. The doctor looked at me like I was a piece of
tit (expected, that particular doctor is never very friendly) was offered Slimming World membership which I turned down because I refuse to go down that route again. She almost rolled her eyes like I was making excuses for myself. But I have been offered significantly subsidised gym membership - access to the gym, all classes and the pool which is great! I was so enthusiastic I think I gave the doctor a shock
I haven’t started yet as I have to have an appointment with a special man at the gym who specialises in the fat folk and he seems to only work one day a week
Importantly though, I have started calorie counting. This is a massive deal for me because believe it or not I used to have an eating disorder and I used to even count calories in toothpaste (in case I accidentally swallowed some), I used to give blood just to make my body work harder and use more calories, I binged, I purged etc etc and was very small.
The whole experience pretty much gave me PTSD, when I came out the other side of it I would have an anxiety attack if I was hungry, I never looked at calories for fear of setting myself off again. And that’s when my weight swung the other way.
I am determined to do it right this time. I am already down 2 pounds. It’s not much but it’s a start.
No stupid slimming world. Just healthy eating and more exercise. Wish me luck!