Totally agree. You can tell by her body language in her haul videos that she feels uncomfortable is 95% of the items she is trying on. Plus all the clothing she apparently likes, you very rarely see her wear any of it.I think you have nailed it. Emma reminds me a lot of my past self and I have a level of compassion for her however that’s not excuse for extremely harmful and racially loaded actions. Get better therapy for your identity issues rather than appropriate and fetishise. I think she deep down is very lonely and unhappy. Like you said, someone who IS having lots of good sex doesn’t feel the need to constantly prove it to others. It’s the same with anything really, if you feel truly happy in your body you don’t feel obliged to constantly put it out there. It’s a silent and confident knowing. That’s not to say everyone who shows off their body is insecure but you can tell her persuasion on how confident she supposedly is is mostly to persuade herself not others.