Conor McGregor #13 We Stand With Nikita

[Dyingtoknow]

I am a survivor of CSA (ages 4 to 11) and I have a voice similar to yours on repeat in my head constantly. What could I have done differently to keep myself safe, what did that man see in me that made it okay to abuse me, why was I so worthless that no adults stopped him even though they knew what he did to other kids before he got to me. Even now as an adult there is a wall of silence around what happened to me because if anyone in the family admits what happened was wrong they may have to acknowledge there own inaction and that's uncomfortable, so the family narrative is that I'm unstable, my PTSD is because I'm somehow inferior to them, I just need to pull my socks up and get on with things, to stop being depressed and fragile.

I know this poster is probably just stirring online and thinks their being funny but the reality is people like this make me think my internal voice is right, a part of me deserved it and there is something fundamentally corrupt in my core as a person. I am in my forties now and I still carry the shame and horror of what he did to me, I was never able to have children because of how he physically damaged me, relationships are tough, life is tough, being outside is just tough due to the amount of fear I still carry, nowhere is safe.

My stomach drops whenever I read comments questioning what Nikita should have done because I have never been brave enough to speak as loudly and as determined as Nikita, and I know those same questions would be asked of me, why I didn't speak out, shout or scream to stop him. He took my voice, I'm glad Nikita has hers.

So sorry you experienced this

 

[Name and Shame]

I can actually hear him saying come to DADDY ...

Oh Jesus, will you stop
When Dee calls him that, I actually cringe

 

[TikToc]

I am a survivor of CSA (ages 4 to 11) and I have a voice similar to yours on repeat in my head constantly. What could I have done differently to keep myself safe, what did that man see in me that made it okay to abuse me, why was I so worthless that no adults stopped him even though they knew what he did to other kids before he got to me. Even now as an adult there is a wall of silence around what happened to me because if anyone in the family admits what happened was wrong they may have to acknowledge there own inaction and that's uncomfortable, so the family narrative is that I'm unstable, my PTSD is because I'm somehow inferior to them, I just need to pull my socks up and get on with things, to stop being depressed and fragile.

I know this poster is probably just stirring online and thinks their being funny but the reality is people like this make me think my internal voice is right, a part of me deserved it and there is something fundamentally corrupt in my core as a person. I am in my forties now and I still carry the shame and horror of what he did to me, I was never able to have children because of how he physically damaged me, relationships are tough, life is tough, being outside is just tough due to the amount of fear I still carry, nowhere is safe.

My stomach drops whenever I read comments questioning what Nikita should have done because I have never been brave enough to speak as loudly and as determined as Nikita, and I know those same questions would be asked of me, why I didn't speak out, shout or scream to stop him. He took my voice, I'm glad Nikita has hers.

Oh my love I'm so so sorry you went through this. Please know it"s in no way your fault. Sending you massive virtual hugs xxxx

 

[Spoofersthelotofthem]

https://www.12ft.io/https://www.12f...nor-McGregor-Ireland-feared-crime-family.html

That's a very in depth article about him. Dublin sounds unsafe.

Dublin is grand once you stay away from the riff raff. 99% of the place ignores them.
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I just read over on Erin’s thread, a girl who lives very close by was out for a walk this afternoon and Terry’s Golf has been egged!!! Egg running down the back window and shells all over the driveway!!!!! Blinds down most of the time, only the living room up for a few hours a day.

Poor Terry no car can't catch a break

 

[gigilouxx]

I am a survivor of CSA (ages 4 to 11) and I have a voice similar to yours on repeat in my head constantly. What could I have done differently to keep myself safe, what did that man see in me that made it okay to abuse me, why was I so worthless that no adults stopped him even though they knew what he did to other kids before he got to me. Even now as an adult there is a wall of silence around what happened to me because if anyone in the family admits what happened was wrong they may have to acknowledge there own inaction and that's uncomfortable, so the family narrative is that I'm unstable, my PTSD is because I'm somehow inferior to them, I just need to pull my socks up and get on with things, to stop being depressed and fragile.

I know this poster is probably just stirring online and thinks their being funny but the reality is people like this make me think my internal voice is right, a part of me deserved it and there is something fundamentally corrupt in my core as a person. I am in my forties now and I still carry the shame and horror of what he did to me, I was never able to have children because of how he physically damaged me, relationships are tough, life is tough, being outside is just tough due to the amount of fear I still carry, nowhere is safe.

My stomach drops whenever I read comments questioning what Nikita should have done because I have never been brave enough to speak as loudly and as determined as Nikita, and I know those same questions would be asked of me, why I didn't speak out, shout or scream to stop him. He took my voice, I'm glad Nikita has hers.

You are far from worthless. You never deserved it, you don’t deserve to carry all this pain for so many years either. It will never ever be the fault of you or any other victims, whoever did that to you is utter bottom of the barrel scum and hopefully he rots in hell for eternity
Sending you so much love

 

[JAR21]

OK lads to be fair a lot of the excellent counterpoints on this thread have actually made me confront my bias, and find it too narrow and lacking. Ye are right; Nikita’s actions that night are completely besides the point and morals don’t come into it, Thank you.

I can't decide whether you're taking the piss?

Even if Nikita did a strip tease in front of him, it didn't give him the right to rape her. Nobody should be forced, regardless of their actions.

 

[jenabelle]

The more videos IV seen lately of that disgusting rapist McGregor & Dee just following behind he has no respect for her embarrassing as.. ! She's just like a little grouping !!! Weird

Rubbing is chest and given him a shoulder massage while he pushed the pram. Like ffs come on its so embarrassing and that video of her licking his chest while he's takes a video its vile so degrading. How could she be in her right mind. Let's me real she has to have lost the plot completely. Or she really has no values or self respect. Her poor family they must have completely lost any hold over her. Very sad for them

 

[shellie]

I am a survivor of CSA (ages 4 to 11) and I have a voice similar to yours on repeat in my head constantly. What could I have done differently to keep myself safe, what did that man see in me that made it okay to abuse me, why was I so worthless that no adults stopped him even though they knew what he did to other kids before he got to me. Even now as an adult there is a wall of silence around what happened to me because if anyone in the family admits what happened was wrong they may have to acknowledge there own inaction and that's uncomfortable, so the family narrative is that I'm unstable, my PTSD is because I'm somehow inferior to them, I just need to pull my socks up and get on with things, to stop being depressed and fragile.

I know this poster is probably just stirring online and thinks their being funny but the reality is people like this make me think my internal voice is right, a part of me deserved it and there is something fundamentally corrupt in my core as a person. I am in my forties now and I still carry the shame and horror of what he did to me, I was never able to have children because of how he physically damaged me, relationships are tough, life is tough, being outside is just tough due to the amount of fear I still carry, nowhere is safe.

My stomach drops whenever I read comments questioning what Nikita should have done because I have never been brave enough to speak as loudly and as determined as Nikita, and I know those same questions would be asked of me, why I didn't speak out, shout or scream to stop him. He took my voice, I'm glad Nikita has hers.

Spoiler: Trigger: CSA by family member

I was a toddler (aged 2) when my grandad started on me and fifteen when I finally got the guts to admit it. For years, I kept quiet and let him have his way. The only way to get through it was by drinking and taking pills I could steal from family members. I often turned up to school drunk but was lucky (or unlucky, depending on how you see it) to be one of those who can look sober no matter how pissed I am, so no one ever suspected. To this day, I don't know why I decided that was it, but one night after, I had enough and just fell apart and told my mum. Thankfully, she and her side of the family were there for me. My dad did nothing when he found out. Other's on his side of the family either claimed it was my fault as I had to have done something to lead him on or called me a 'lying little witch.' The thing is, even at such a young age, I had learnt to lock the bathroom door if I was in the same house as him and needed to be undressed for any reason so he couldn't 'walk in by accident' and never be in a position to'make it easy for him' but he still found a way.

I was guilt-tripped into keeping quiet as they used my mental health issues as an excuse to remind me if I did report it and it went to court, they would use stuff I had done as proof I was lying. I stupidly believed them and let it go, but after that, I had nothing to do with him. Just before he died, he admitted it and said to tell me he was sorry, but it was too late to do anything, and he got away with it. What got me more was that I then found out he had done it to others, including one of those who called me a liar. He also seemingly used to take young girls out in his car, which turned out to be true, as some admitted to it years later, which they had known but still called me a liar. I had started counseling by then and can't say it worked 100%, as there are still times even now all these years later. I am reminded as if it were yesterday, and I start wondering what I could do to change things before realising I couldn't then and couldn't now, and I just have to carry on the best I can and I try to, my spur being I'm the one who is alive and happy while he is dead and rotting.

I'm not surprised there are people who are victim-blaming Nikita, as it always happens, but what is sickening is how many women there are who are doing it, especially those who claim to have had it happen to them, which you would think would make a difference but clearly not. They seem to think they were the perfect victim but she wasn't.

 

[Lmkgirl]

So was on X looking at General Election tweets and just had to look at this cunts X....I'm sorry if this has been posted ..I missed this.
The anger right now I'm feeling is unreal.
I spoke about my friend who's friends with him previously and brought it up.
She tried to explain his side but after a tense 25 minute conversation I brought her around to her realising he's a rapist.

Tbh a lot of points I made were comments I had read here.
I found I was able to express my views and the facts more coherently ALL because of ye wonderful beautiful ppl ❤ ♥

This thread is a shinning example of ppl supporting each other.
Proud to be here

 

[Nosycrow]

I can't decide whether you're taking the piss?

Even if Nikita did a strip tease in front of him, it didn't give him the right to rape her. Nobody should be forced, regardless of their actions.

I’ve already reiterated that I’m completely sincere and have changed my outlook thanks to the discussion here.

 

[Calalily4]

You can change your opinion and outlook on the case but you cannot change the fact that Conor McGregor is a rapist

 

[Leopardqueen]

I am a survivor of CSA (ages 4 to 11) and I have a voice similar to yours on repeat in my head constantly. What could I have done differently to keep myself safe, what did that man see in me that made it okay to abuse me, why was I so worthless that no adults stopped him even though they knew what he did to other kids before he got to me. Even now as an adult there is a wall of silence around what happened to me because if anyone in the family admits what happened was wrong they may have to acknowledge there own inaction and that's uncomfortable, so the family narrative is that I'm unstable, my PTSD is because I'm somehow inferior to them, I just need to pull my socks up and get on with things, to stop being depressed and fragile.

I know this poster is probably just stirring online and thinks their being funny but the reality is people like this make me think my internal voice is right, a part of me deserved it and there is something fundamentally corrupt in my core as a person. I am in my forties now and I still carry the shame and horror of what he did to me, I was never able to have children because of how he physically damaged me, relationships are tough, life is tough, being outside is just tough due to the amount of fear I still carry, nowhere is safe.

My stomach drops whenever I read comments questioning what Nikita should have done because I have never been brave enough to speak as loudly and as determined as Nikita, and I know those same questions would be asked of me, why I didn't speak out, shout or scream to stop him. He took my voice, I'm glad Nikita has hers.

I’m so sorry you had this experience. I’m sure this is extremely triggering for you also.
Please be kind to yourself x

 

[snoopmommymom]

I feel like it’s done deliberately, look how so many have stopped talking about him to dog pile onto her instead. He probably saw people having sympathy for her the past week and got mad about it.

My thoughts exactly! He can’t stand being the bad guy so he’s dragged her down to make himself feel a bit better. He knew exactly what he was doing when he made Dee post those stories. I fully believe she is controlled by him, i was in an abusive & controlling relationship & can see it a mile off, he is a textbook narc

 

[JustAnotherFollower]

I’m not active on this but not in a bad way, you are my twin CSA from ages 5-12 from 3 family members. I never spoke out and nearly 40 I still wouldn’t because I know full well it would end up being my fault I was the troublesome one growing up, always out to cause trouble for everyone, isn’t it any wonder. I used to work but now that I have kids and I have chosen to be a stay at home mom and they are never left alone with anyone without me (apart from school) I get told often I’m lazy not working etc etc, my husband works, has a good jobs and he understands completely and it works for us for now. If people only knew. But I know this sounds horrible but in a way i am happy it happened (not happy but that’s the only way i can word it) because I know the signs and what to look out for,,, Sad I know but I’ll never let anything happen them what happened me and I can only do my best to prevent it and look out for the signs. It’s horrible to deal with, it affects me every single day but as long as kids are safe, that’s all that matters, so easy write all this anon, sorry for derailing

Ye are so brave, ye were just little babies.. I'm so sorry for what happened to you both and know that nothing was your fault.. those people made their own evil choices and they can live and die with knowing that... keep going and keep strong, im glad ye could share safely here

 

[Calalily4]

This should be good

High Court is expected to review Conor McGregor’s bitter online attacks before costs ruling

Conor McGregor’s online posts over the High Court’s finding that he assaulted Nikita Hand are likely to be raised before Mr Justice Alexander Owens this week when the legal costs of Ms Hand’s case come up for determination.

m.independent.ie

 

[starburstttt]

Newspaper article just posted that D has resigned as secretary of C’s company

 

[louloubops]

My thoughts exactly! He can’t stand being the bad guy so he’s dragged her down to make himself feel a bit better. He knew exactly what he was doing when he made Dee post those stories. I fully believe she is controlled by him, i was in an abusive & controlling relationship & can see it a mile off, he is a textbook narc

yea I totally agree, he couldn’t stand the sympathy she was receiving and wanted everyone to dislike her too, I don’t have sympathy for Dee she knew what he was before having kids with him.
The locals in Crumlin apparently started drinking in the other pubs when he bought the forge, so his usual clientele would be tourists,insta huns & of course his own family, the forge has never turned a profit and has probably been used as a money laundering operation for his “friends”.
Now all his deals have dried up there’s no more money pouring in, he’ll never be sober enough to fight again, he’s been such a toe rag the last few years that so many are enjoying his downfall, no matter where he goes in the world he’ll always be known as what he is - a Rapist, his ego will never be able to deal with that and I foresee him broke or dead in the next few years

 

[Specsqueen]

Newspaper article just posted that D has resigned as secretary of C’s company

Back in February. It’s not this week. If you Google the company it gives all the dates and details.

 

[my2cents.com]

Hood read, gives a great run down of all hiz companies loses!!

Dee Devlin resigned as secretary of Conor McGregor company as fighter’s empire on the rocks

Conor McGregor’s partner Dee Devlin resigned her position as secretary of his company ‘McGregor Sports and Entertainment Ltd’ nine months ago, according to company records.

m.sundayworld.com

 

[Yeroneoverthere]

Interesting!