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This is why ED are so dangerous. For one, the misunderstanding surrounding them is still so great. People think there are a few types, with typical behavioural profiles but actually they are so wide ranging and widespread.
Secondly, they feed on our competitive nature. They make us into two different people, us and ED us so that we might say things to our families and friends but our actions and SM behaviour might display entirely different traits. I’ve seen things in Gemma that I did (and I’m trying not to do), I’m seeing things that I saw my students do. The thing is, I (and my students) didn’t flaunt it on SM. We didn’t encourage our behaviours to those who were equally vulnerable.
She will be loving the fact that being ill makes her look like it does. She will be loving that it’s getting her praise. But deep down, she’ll be terrified that the illness stops or that she’ll no longer have the control to eat so little. She’ll be constantly trying on clothes to check that they are still hanging off her and that’s so exhausting. She’ll be checking her Instagram from previous weeks to see that there are differences. You aren’t happy in that space.
I’m torn between feeling angry at what she’s exposing Olivia and her followers to, being heartbroken to see this unfold, being insanely envious that she looks like that and finally angry that I’ve allowed myself to feel envious.
Secondly, they feed on our competitive nature. They make us into two different people, us and ED us so that we might say things to our families and friends but our actions and SM behaviour might display entirely different traits. I’ve seen things in Gemma that I did (and I’m trying not to do), I’m seeing things that I saw my students do. The thing is, I (and my students) didn’t flaunt it on SM. We didn’t encourage our behaviours to those who were equally vulnerable.
She will be loving the fact that being ill makes her look like it does. She will be loving that it’s getting her praise. But deep down, she’ll be terrified that the illness stops or that she’ll no longer have the control to eat so little. She’ll be constantly trying on clothes to check that they are still hanging off her and that’s so exhausting. She’ll be checking her Instagram from previous weeks to see that there are differences. You aren’t happy in that space.
I’m torn between feeling angry at what she’s exposing Olivia and her followers to, being heartbroken to see this unfold, being insanely envious that she looks like that and finally angry that I’ve allowed myself to feel envious.