I don't know how to phrase this eloquently but to me, her idea of beauty, despite being born and raised in London (or maybe because of that), is very similar to middle eastern girls who wish they weren't. Excessive blonde highlights, excessive plastic surgery to wipe out any trace of ethnic features, extremely revealing clothing to overcompensate for a background that they are uncomfortable with. I base this on my own experience with what I've observed over the years but insecurity bleeds from every pore of her body and inside of her head must be hell with a constant jury sitting on trial about how she still doesn't look the part. Despite all her money and beauty treatments and surgeries, I see a person who doesn't like herself, who has no sense of identity.
(I could go on a tangent about how capitalism and imperialism are force-feeding women the "White Western Ideal" so they keep spending more to become That Girl even though they will never succeed because the finish line keeps moving further, but I should't.)
I believe Amelia has that mixture of a sense of superiority underlined with a tremendous inferiority complex. The only thing she can use to feed her enormous ego is money so she overspends but money doesn't buy style or taste or real love, so she's still left with a gaping hole inside her mind that she doesn't know how to fill. She would do well to self reflect and figure out who she is when she puts down the labels, the postcode and the millionaire family, what she wants from her life and what she stands for, but I won't hold my breath. I'd feel sorry for her if she weren't such a liar.
Spot on! But I think it is not just being born into her privilege and family. I think Amelia´s downfall is a little bit her indulgent family, shallow mother and all the ideals of what a woman should look and behave like put upon her culturally. BUT her family seems close knit, supportive and loving and Hannah (having grown up in the same family) seems totally different. I´ve got no idea whether she has better self esteem but at least she seems happy, likes what she does for a living and like she knows who she is as a person. She probably gained so much from going to uni away from London/her family/usual circles, living with other people in a house/having a "normal uni experience", living in Paris for a bit etc. I think Amelia´s "job" and social media in general are the bigger problem. Amelia is just very self obsessed and shallow. She lacks any sort of depth, I couldn´t imagine what a nice, smart, successful man would even talk to her about. She seems emotionally and cognitively stunted at the age of 15. She doesn´t seem like she can hold a "grown up" conversation even off camera. I know she puts up a "Paris Hilton" persona online (and it has gotten worse over the years on YouTube, watch the oldest videos on her channel, she seems so much more grown up and "together" back then) but I have never even seen a glimpse of any sort of mature side of her.
She should get off of social media, reconnect with old friends like Philipa for example and figure out who she is on the inside. I don´t think this life makes her happy and it will only get worse. And maybe find an actual career, internship or pretend work/charity work like her mother. People forget how important it is for your self esteem to work/spend your days actually doing something you are proud of. Hannah figured that out and is doing great while still enjoying (rightly so) her privilege and family money.
I mean everybody, especially late 20s/ early 30s develops and changes so much, grows from exactly those early years building careers or starting family or whatever and it can be such a hard but rewarding time. It has nothing to do with having or not having money.. But she has nothing in her life that would prompt these changes in her. She literally is the exact same person who spends the exact same day over and over again. While everybody around her grows up and moves on with their life. It is really sad to see.....
She is just like Sunbeamsjess... who I referred to ages ago as the Rory from the GG revival. Pure disappointment and waste of potential.... In a slightly different general setting I am starting to feel exactly like that towards Amelia.
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