Hi everyone
First time posting! Been here for about a year now. I just wanted to share how I ended up here because I’ve loved reading other people’s stories.
I was a fan of Sarah for a good 3 years before I one day thought to myself, I wonder how much money she makes. Which led me to a google search which lead me to tattle and r*ddit. At first I was so shocked by how mean everyone was being about Sarah but as I stuck around I started to see that the criticism was warranted. The first thing I was dying to know was if other people thought her teeth looked ridiculous because despite loving Sarah, I could not get over how massive her teeth were!! Glad to see I was not the only one who thought they looked odd.
The funny thing is that when I loved her I was completely blind to all the things I now know about her. When my husband first saw her Instagram, he commented on how fake she looks and I was so offended
now I definitely agree.
I started following her because I have pcos and my friend told me that there was a really sweet girl on YouTube who is trying to manage her pcos through exercise and diet, and I thought that sounded amazing. I was, of course, deep in orthorexia at the time so someone restricting food groups and labeling themselves paleo based or whatever was so inspiring for me.
I remember trying to eat like her, with her “nourish bowls” and “massaged kale” and I even bought loving earth chocolate, which I didn’t actually like but kept eating anyway because I wanted so much to be like Sezzy.
Like a lot of people here have said, she did have a different energy she brought to her videos back in the day—I thought she was funny and just so vibrant and fun, like hanging out with a cool older sister. I think it helped that I was about 20 years old then, just figuring out adulthood. She used to show much more of her parents and sisters and I was just way more relatable back then. I loved all the things—skin care and makeup and I thought she was so cool for being able to make up recipes just on her own. I don’t think I wanted exactly to look like her but I wanted the kind of life and energy she seemed to have. And my disordered self loved the body checks and project come backs and found comfort in her fruit and nut mix binges (because after all that massaged kale, I felt good knowing it was okay to binge too
).
I do have to say, one positive thing that came out of following her was adding healthy fats to my meals, something I wasn’t really doing because I thought eating fat was bad. (But I remember her using hemp seed oil a lot on her salads and I of course tried it, but that stuff is pretty gross and the bottle of oil stayed in my fridge for probably 2 years before I just threw it out.)
I also bought her first ebook and I think I did one or two workouts from it but they were so hard that I completely gave up on it. I also really badly wanted to buy her first line of active wear but it was so expensive and the shipping cost so much that I never got around to it. Now I’m very glad I didn’t invest any more money into her nonsense.
So anyway, just wanted to share how I got here and say thanks for all the entertainment for the past year!
I have burst out laughing more than once reading all your comments about Sezzy. I think if tattle could be made into a podcast, it would be amazing. I’d definitely listen!
I also just have to say about her nickname for Malakai—in my country mälli (pronounced pretty much the same way as mally in English) means cum/semen and I cannot get over her calling her son that, it just sounds so bad to me
also, just the name Fox Ocean is terrible but calling him foxy is so bad too, makes me think of a creepy old man trying to seductively describe a young woman as foxy. Ew.