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Hey,

I’ve just found these threads - hope this doesn’t land somewhere awkward because I’m still reading, but overwhelmed right now and wanted to say thank you.

Last night I was crying because I was a horrible person. I was angry. Angry at a cancer warrior, battling stage four. Who could be angry at a stage four cancer patient? Like, how low are you? That’s what I told myself.

I was angry because of how romantic it was portrayed. How loving, active, cutesie even with giggle exchanges with nurses.

I loved the “embrace the every day” message, the dancing, the laughter, but it just felt… off.

My brother, my best friend in the world, had stage four cancer and passed away at 27. We only found out he had cancer three months before. He had no energy for anything, at most sitting outside or walking down the stairs. Those three months were torture. But we tried to make him smile -we tried guitar in hospital,games, danced discos in hospital to make him laugh. Anything. We were clawing into time to make memories.

So I cried last night because I’m an asshole for being jealous that someone had more time, and more energy, to live.

I put aside a few raised eyebrows on the content and ads. That was just me being petty.

I’ve felt down all day that I could have let myself be angry at someone living. Then I discovered these threads and I feel a little teeny bit less like a witch for raising my eyebrow at the gifted trip and go fund me situation… so thank you x
 
Liblet said:
Hey,

I’ve just found these threads - hope this doesn’t land somewhere awkward because I’m still reading, but overwhelmed right now and wanted to say thank you.

Last night I was crying because I was a horrible person. I was angry. Angry at a cancer warrior, battling stage four. Who could be angry at a stage four cancer patient? Like, how low are you? That’s what I told myself.

I was angry because of how romantic it was portrayed. How loving, active, cutesie even with giggle exchanges with nurses.

I loved the “embrace the every day” message, the dancing, the laughter, but it just felt… off.

My brother, my best friend in the world, had stage four cancer and passed away at 27. We only found out he had cancer three months before. He had no energy for anything, at most sitting outside or walking down the stairs. Those three months were torture. But we tried to make him smile -we tried guitar in hospital,games, danced discos in hospital to make him laugh. Anything. We were clawing into time to make memories.

So I cried last night because I’m an asshole for being jealous that someone had more time, and more energy, to live.

I put aside a few raised eyebrows on the content and ads. That was just me being petty.

I’ve felt down all day that I could have let myself be angry at someone living. Then I discovered these threads and I feel a little teeny bit less like a witch for raising my eyebrow at the gifted trip and go fund me situation… so thank you x
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that's exactly the issue! she romanticises the illness, and presents it all as rainbows and sparkles, when the reality is anything but. spreading positivity is one thing, but even in her latest post, she is trying to imply that the progression is somehow a silver lining, as having liver mets may allow her access to clinical trials which she didn't have before, as though she was hopeful they would progress from her bones. the impact of those scan results would be devastating, yet she has glossed over it with an "inspirational" positive spin, all poses and giggles and bouncing and cutesy smiles - absolutely no thought for all the people she is making feel guilty or awful for not being as "happy" as her despite having a similar diagnosis or for feelings of envy etc. you have nothing to feel guilty for. you are. not. a horrible person. as you said, her portrayal is all romanticised, glamorised bullshit. it's content, not real life. sending lots of love. ♥
 
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