Lauren Goodger #65

[Crowbag]

I had about a dozen miscarriages, (maybe more but due to my brain tumour my body was f'd up from the radiotherapy and chemo and I wasn't having periods regularly). We tried for 7 years before we were finally blessed. Some miscarriages were later stage (past 14 weeks) but not classed as still births. This was over 25 years ago and they weren't really classed as important by the hospital, just 'one of those things'. I finally fell pregnant to my wonderful son when I was 31 but worried every minute I was pregnant that something would happen. I got really bad pre-eclampsia and almost died when he was induced at 8 weeks prem and had a C section as he was in distress. I never fell pregnant again after that as my body went into pre-menopause.
I know I can't speak of BYG's experience but our experience (Hub and I) must have been very similar. As a believer in God I couldn't understand why he would let me experience pregnancy without letting me become a mother. Also as a primary school teacher in a rough area I'd see kids walking to school age 4 on their own, one of 8, who were dirty and hungry (generalising of course- not all were like this), so I felt twice as worse seeing these mum's with multiple kids who didn't seem to appreciate what they'd got.
Personally I kept it all in. Not good I know but especially with miscarriages in those days no one talked about it. Either people said nothing, avoided me or said things like 'Better luck next time' or 'It's God's way' or even 'You wouldn't want a disabled baby would you? This is God's way of getting rid of disabled babies'. I know these kind of things aren't said to still birth mums but it was damn hard for us every time, and worse still every time I got pregnant. Everywhere I looked all I saw were pregnant mums, crying babies, and on TV, adverts for pampers etc. It was weird.
I also felt terribly guilty because I know it was my illnesses and treatments that were causing the miscarriages. When our son was born I also thought he was going to die like all the others and I hardly ate or slept for at least 3 weeks when he came home from hospital. I cherished every moment with him (and still do even though he's got his own place now). I truly feel for BYG and I just hope she doesn't use this (as we will see it) to make money.
Sadly my super fit husband died from bowel cancer when our son was 7. He was a fantastic dad. His son is just like him. He's 22 now and a copper. I'm so proud. Despite being 3lb 9oz at birth he's now a strapping 6 footer. He was small but perfectly formed. He has sticky out ears like his grandad but that made him even cuter in my mind. I could have burst with pride every moment of his life, and now knowing what a good lad he's turned into, his dad will be overjoyed in heaven watching his mini me flourish.
From his dad's death to his funeral I was on auto pilot, more so to bring an ounce of normalcy to his son. I cried buckets of tears, we both did, but I tried to keep mine in for his son's sake. I didn't want to see anyone. I wanted to just sit or watch TV holding our son. It's different with Larose. She won't know why mummy's sad or crying. At his dad's funeral (I can only make this comparison) I put on a nice dress (no make up or hairdo) and tried to hold it together. I managed to do this until my son asked to kiss his daddy one last time. He gave him things to put in his coffin- his 50p spends (so he could buy stuff in heaven) and a spud gun so he could shoot the zombies in the cemetery, a Man U scarf to keep him warm and he also gave him half of his Blankie that he slept with still every night so he could sleep well. Kids are the best at coping with death of a loved one. They are pragmatic. Cherishing him helped a lot and I do hope BYG will do the same with Larose.

Anything I say is going to sound trite.
If I knew you in 'reality' you are a person I would want to hug. Whether you wanted it or not. I'd chase you down the street in my wheelz. Your son would have to arrest me. I'd go down fighting
So have a virtual hug.

 

[savethelastdance]

So much I want to say but I won’t so I’ll just stick with “wow!”. Absolutely unbelievable.

 

[lamaitresse]

I don't take drugs (believe me, my brain is psychedelic enough on its own) but I do know depression and despair. Maybe this is their way of coping and staving off dark feelings, bad memories, getting on with it?

Or they could just be harder-boiled than I am and it's all water off a duck's back. I don't know what to think but there should be some people around Larose who are sober and sensible. Really not sure what to make of this?

Cocaine use is more normalised than it ever was (I'm 51 this year, and apparently it's cheaper and easier to obtain, nobody really does speed any more - so I'm told). Maybe this is just how they roll and they see it as normal as having a few drinks? I know in some circles this is how it is. I've always resolutely avoided drugs, simply because my mental health is already gossamer-thin. I'm not naive enough to think it doesn't happen, though.

 

[Rubez2812]

A .5 isn’t going to cause them to be incapacitated, that said it’s vile on laroses birthday, and I’m in no way condoning it

 

[Xxcxcc]

A .5 isn’t going to cause them to be incapacitated, that said it’s vile on laroses birthday, and I’m in no way condoning it

It starts with a .5 and then leads to more. Once you start you don't stop at a .5, done it in my early 20s, lost track of time and next thing you know you're standing chatting tit in someone's kitchen and you hear the birds and see the sun come up, worst feeling ever, then ya on a comedown for a few days after. I done this when I had no children so can't possibly imagine what it's like doing it with kids. That little girls life will be horrendous with the comedown that they will have. Sick bastards

 

[Sunnydaze101]

How much would .5 cost round a bout?

 

[minamoon]

How much would .5 cost round a bout?

Back in 2015/2016 when I dabbled it was about £40 for half a gram. This would only last a couple of hours, if that.

 

[bargainhunt99]

The way the papers worded the headlines was confusing. It read like she had died 2 days after being born but what they actually meant was Lauren announced the death 2 days after she passed

Ah I see. Thank you.

 

[Dd29]

Bit of a sensitive question –

To those of you who’ve lost babies, how did you cope immediately after? Did you have to put on a happy face & act normal? The way BYG & Chaz are acting is just odd… I understand it’s Lalightsareonbutnobodieshome birthday but like…. It’s all just weird to me??????? I’ve never lost a child, although I am a mother. 2(?) weeks ago, she was holding her dead baby in hospital and now they’re off their faces on coke begging for party favors and tit idk. It all feels so off man…

First time I jumped back.up pretended it didnt happen. Second time I was broken for months and was told by friends I should be over it by now. No1 can put a timeline on grief or judge People on how they grieve

 

[HeCannitSeeMan]

£40 for a half a Peruvian? No waaaay. That’s inflation for you! it was half that in the early 2000s n I’m in London

It’s disgusting that they’re parents of such a young child, and drug users- but they would say it’s recreational and currently how they’re coping if they’re going to be druggies though they should switch to speed, it’ll do wonders for their figures.

maybe Saturday will be the mag shoot,there’s GOING to be a tell all article- they’re just waiting for the offer to be high enough I reckon…. But…. Is it me or has interest in this non existent already anyway??

also- this thread being moved to quieter it’s never been quiet- was it just to make it harder for noobs to find?

 

[the slosher KP]

£40 for a half a Peruvian? No waaaay. That’s inflation for you! it was half that in the early 2000s n I’m in London

It’s disgusting that they’re parents of such a young child, and drug users- but they would say it’s recreational and currently how they’re coping if they’re going to be druggies though they should switch to speed, it’ll do wonders for their figures.

maybe Saturday will be the mag shoot,there’s GOING to be a tell all article- they’re just waiting for the offer to be high enough I reckon…. But…. Is it me or has interest in this non existent already anyway??

also- this thread being moved to quieter it’s never been quiet- was it just to make it harder for noobs to find?

I agree - a gram is around £50 so half is about £25.

 

[MrAllSeeingEye]

Not going to lie, any sympathy I had for them is rapidly diminishing.

 

[Blair-Waldorf]

It starts with a .5 and then leads to more. Once you start you don't stop at a .5, done it in my early 20s, lost track of time and next thing you know you're standing chatting tit in someone's kitchen and you hear the birds and see the sun come up, worst feeling ever, then ya on a comedown for a few days after. I done this when I had no children so can't possibly imagine what it's like doing it with kids. That little girls life will be horrendous with the comedown that they will have. Sick bastards

God been there many a time in my younger days before kids. The thought honestly turns me green. Imagine how they’re feeling today… skint, nose bleeds, heart pounding, foul mood. Poor larose my heart breaks for her

 

[NotAgain?]

I agree - a gram is around £50 so half is about £25.

I think coke is the only thing that's got cheaper over the years! It was definitely more expensive in the 90's.

Well, I guess now we know why she's always bunged up and croaky sounding and why she sleeps all day. Also the feeding frenzy dinners. Can't eat for hours and then as soon as you can, you eat everything.

Katy Price is the same. Croaky and erratic all day keeping herself going with haribo and full fat coke then big indian takeaway around 7 and then get back on it.

 

[Xxcxcc]

God been there many a time in my younger days before kids. The thought honestly turns me green. Imagine how they’re feeling today… skint, nose bleeds, heart pounding, foul mood. Poor larose my heart breaks for her

Same, I feel sick when I think about it. Making way home at 6 in morning sometimes later and staring at the ceiling not being able to get to sleep. The comedown are the worst, say you never do it again then next weekend in the same position. So glad I got that out the way before kids. I mean for them to be doing it during the week it must be bad and on their kids birthday. I could cry for packing, no wonder she is stuck in constantly, her mams on a constant comedown

 

[Allmyownopinion]

I think we all suspected the drug use for the reasons stated by others, but it became especially evident by their inability to parent properly & the reason Larose was left in front of the TV while they spent all day in bed, no toys, no interaction, they were just incapable from the come downs. That’s shocked us enough & many threads have wondered why no medical professionals stepped in as it’s clear child neglect. But now the drug use is proven, it all speaks for itself. This is why she’s so secretive, why she doesn’t engage with health visitors, why she won’t get Larose vaccinated, why she wouldn’t give birth in hospital or get scanned with the latest child. She’s terrified of her drug use coming out. I’ve no doubt she continued it throughout both pregnancies & hasn’t missed a beat since giving birth. I agree with another poster that’s probably why she not even grieving for her dead child, she’s just numb & devoid of feeling because she’s a coke fiend.

 

[Sunnydaze101]

Back in 2015/2016 when I dabbled it was about £40 for half a gram. This would only last a couple of hours, if that.

Wow. Expensive habit. Thanks for that

 

[minamoon]

I agree - a gram is around £50 so half is about £25.

Haha. Well it appears I got ripped off frequently. I was a complete goodie two shoes, at university and had no idea what I was doing or any experience of drugs before (aside from sharing the odd doob at a party - hated that as well) so they must have seen me coming. I have no idea how much it is now but that’s definitely the price I was paying back then. My ex and I would usually go halves. I don’t typically like thinking about it as he was always absolutely disgusting to me when he was coming down.

As people have said, it explains a lot. I once in my naivety ordered an Indian on coke. My ex laughed at me and said there was no way I’d eat any of it and he was right. Our BYG doesn’t really typically share photos of breakfasts or even lunch; it’s always some huge dinner for 6 people for just her and Charles.

Honestly, I hope they get help. I hope they find it within themselves to want to change for Larose. My ex probably will always be a druggy, and as stated, he has two children now. I dread to think how he behaves around them as he couldn’t go 5 minutes without weed or a day or two without coke and he was so violent and lazy. Always up and down. Might also explain why Charles’ eyes are always so creepy. He’s bloody wired 24/7!!

 

[katyazamo]

If you're ordering a half gram during the day on a Wednesday then you've got a problem. Cocaine use is so casual these days I know, but big Chaz is a father to a baby who has just turned one and just lost his second child - this is not normal behaviour. You've got other people to think about now, it's not just about you.

I don't really buy the "that's his way of coping" argument. If that's the case then he should seeks professional help or a therapist because cocaine and getting your willy out on only fans isn't gonna do it. He's got Loz and LaBirthday to support, he either steps up or doesn't bother. It's that simple imo.

And as a former cokehead! That half gram will last a few hours. He'll have ordered more. You never stop at a half the amount of tit they cut the coke with now too, it's just not worth it. But it's absolutely rampant in the celeb and z list world.

 

[hayleybaby]

I agree - a gram is around £50 so half is about £25.

this Isn’t true .That’s old prices lol. You pay £10 a point now. So he would of paid 40 - 50 for half a g.