UOL Transcript:
Jamie’s first experience of doing Psychedelics : “
I was blessed I had this group of entrepreneurial friends who were all very inspired from hearing rumours of this taking place with some of the top CEOs in San Fran. I remember we were like, what are they doing? We were all into biohacking at the time and this was like the edgy step forward for us. It was like you know, they're all doing all these bio hacks, but they're also talking about this. So we talked about it for months because we were nervous and we were anxious, but we were like we'll all do it together, four of us, all kind of in business for ourselves, and we found this beautiful space. We, we, actually we all, we all were so conscious of how to create the space. We were like let's make it really colour neutral, let's take down any..any like any artwork that might be distractive. So it's a really beautiful neutral environment. Let's light candles. We curated a playlist, we got eye masks and and …we did exactly this as well. We didn't micro dose, we took quite a big dose. The idea was that it was. We were just curious. So let's see what happened, and for me it was the most. It was such a..in reflection, it was probably one of the most beautiful experiences of my life, to be like there with four friends, adventuring, um, but like one of us, one of us led us through a little breath work exercise to kind of calm us all together.Another kind of talked about intentions and like opened the, opened the forum for us to discuss fears and and also kind of like ideas of what it might be, when none of us really knew what it was going to be. But it was so nice anyway. Then at a certain point we, we, one of my friends was almost like a bloody chemist. He whipped, he had grown mushrooms and then made them into these beautiful chocolate truffles and so so anyway, we took them, put our eye masks on and and laid down and for me, what just blew my mind was it was like my you know, when you close your eyes and you don't really see much. But it was like it was like kind of almost tuning in a TV that suddenly that space that is normally, normally just looks like static, started to almost tune in. And I like I suddenly I was remembering my dreams and I was like this is amazing.That was the dream I had the night before, and that was the night, the dream I had before, and I could see my dreams really clearly and I was like, oh, there's a message here. How have I not understood that? And then suddenly I could remember memories, but not just like you know how we kind of have a blurry memory. It was like I was literally taking a videotape in and putting it and I could rewind it. I could bring myself right into the room, I could look around in that room. I could remember like the smell in the air, the touch, if perhaps I was touching somebody or something like that. It was so precise and that shook me. I was like, wow, I have access to my dreams. I have access to my memory at a capacity I just didn't know was there. I just didn't know was there. And then ..then the strangest thing happened. I like it's like I was on a swivel chair and I swivelled around and I was at a board table with, like all these people which for now I would see as my guides, oh, wow, yes, are my ancestors, and they were like there's a wanted me to put on the Jamie voice. But no, it was like Jamie, you are way too distracted with your outside world and you have no idea the power and capacity that you have in here in your internal world. Can we encourage you to stop getting so, stop being so concerned of what the outside world thinks and wants of you and to journey deeper into yourself, because we promise you that if you go deeper into yourself and start honouring yourself, you're going to live on a whole different level. And you talked about a mission and it kind of inspired this thought. It was like so we want you to do this, this, this and this. And it wasn't like that was a third party. It genuinely felt like it was an internal part of me saying this is what we need to do, right, so you have been doing what you think you need to do based on what everybody else is saying out there. Here's what we should be doing from a really deep internal place, right. And I left and at that moment it was like you've got your message. Now just enjoy the joy of your imagination and the pleasure that your body can it can experience. And it was amazing.
I was taking on this like this unbelievable imaginative, like a symphony of just like oh my God, this is so creative. This is so beautiful, this is so entertaining, let's say, whilst at the same time, my body was experiencing what I would could only describe as full body orgasms. I was like this is amazing. And when I came out of it I was like I have the capacity to remember my dreams, go back through my memories like a vault tune into a part of myself that is like filter, free and uninfluenced by external perspective. It's like my truest voice. I can experience pleasure at a level I just never knew. And, oh my God, my imagination is better than any movie, any TV show. And it shook me. It shook me for weeks actually, because I was like I didn't know any of this was in there. This is amazing. And so began my mission.”
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"I started this year. I was having a real low point. I was really out of sorts and I remember every morning I started like kind of building my, my, my structure and my strategy for kicking myself out of those circumstances. I did everything. I got up and I made my bed first because I wanted to have a sense of accomplishment and that prepped for the evening. I go downstairs and I challenge myself with a cold shower and again give myself that sense of I'm in control here and I fight my fears. But I actually remember I would
hug myself and say exactly that I love and appreciate myself, I love and accept myself, I love and approve of myself. And I also added a fourth one, which is I
love and acknowledge the hero that I am and I…
I sat in those cold showers hugging myself and saying those lines and like I love and appreciate myself, like I sat with that as in, I appreciate who I am, how I am, how I'm showing up in the world, I approve. I say I love and approve of myself. I approve of who I am, how I, how I'm showing up in the world, and I'd love them to accept that. I'd love them to accept myself. The more I did that honestly, the more I did that honestly, the more I actually I remember certain points, sitting there hugging myself, going through that process and crying with like a feeling of jamie, you've come back to yourself, this is a big accomplishment, it's huge, it's huge and it's again. It's so easily lost right. And I did that. I said those lines mirror for a little while and I kind of rhymed and wrapped them in a couple of bit of form, but it wasn't until a very low point where I really grabbed them and I learned what it meant to actually say them, to feel them and to enjoy the benefit of that "
More revelations and "wisdom"from UOL...
Jamie says he “started working with psilocybe magic mushrooms in mid-20s”. One of his friends, after a night out snorted a line of cocaine in front of him and he was like "Jay, I really want to talk to you about this mushroom thing. I'm really concerned about you!" He says "those that judge the most are oftentimes going through the biggest struggles within themselves, and the judgment comes up almost as a bit of a deflection because, when they witness somebody expressing themselves in a certain light, it triggers up all that."
“I remember back when I was around, when I was around 14 or 15, with somebody. I um was with a girl and I prematurely ejaculated, yeah, and I was so embarrassed, so ashamed yeah and um. In another kind of occasion a little while later, the same happened again 
Some time later..
“I remember I, um, I fancied a photographer and I was like could you take some photos of me? Yeah, it's kind of like my way of let's hang and let's hang out anyway, she ended up taking these photos of me and it was like me in the water or me with the wet top on, and I remember when she sent them to me I didn't know what to think. I got so overwhelmed, I like. I looked at them in me and, let's say, provocatively or in a sexy way, I was like, oh my God. One of my friends grabbed my phone. He was like Jay, what's this? Oh, wow, you look great in these photos. I was like, are you sure? I feel a little bit nervous seeing myself like that. And he was like no, you look amazing. You should, you should totally share those photos. Yeah, which I did. And I remember this was kind of, let's say, a journey of, of integrating a level of sexiness”
poor creep. People asking simple questions. Outrageous!
