Problem is this is still a huge part of the head ****. You spend your time wondering what it was that wasn’t enough, what more you could have done. I can objectively see that you’re completely right that they choose to cheat with easier and for no decent reason, but been going through similar here too (after chemo) and the pain has at times been physical! Can’t imagine trusting someone again, and it’s also about not trusting because of all the things I pulled apart wondering if I had done wrong and therefore don’t want to leave those things open for others to see. I can relate to the pain helen must have felt and that’s what brought me to the thread. Sending @Ya-Mar