Hello, guys! I've been having a rough few weeks and i've come back to this and lo and behold - nothing has changed with her. I believe she's even worse now tbh. As usual she makes me want to laugh and throw up at the same time - an achievement, if i say so myself.
Warning: may be triggering (Endo Related), proceed to last stanza if you must
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As i've mentioned a few threads back i was twinning with Gabby for a December Operashun for Endo. I had it on the first week of December - Hysterectomy and Bilateral Oophorectomy, so now i'm without ovaries and a uterus. And before anyone wonders why the severe and drastic operation, it's because I had Ovarian Cancer along with stage 4 Endo (genetics thing, had 3 aunts die from Ovarian cancer). I never said it before cause I didn't want to be a downer, but now I guess the future's brighter lol so I can mention it. I'm relieved that the surgery was a success without any complications, but it wasn't til after the surgery was done that the implications crashed down on me. Early menopause, early aging, bigger chance of osteoporosis, a couple sessions of radiation - i can deal with them because they're nothing compared to cancer... but kids. I never knew how much I wanted kids til i lost the ability to have them. It's crazy. I think i'll go to therapy for the issue once I fully physically recover. I catch myself drifting off most days because of thoughts of it.
Life goes on, though. I'll carry on and work hard and thank my lucky stars every single day.
I sure hope Gabby's not making a mockery of a condition a lot of people are suffering from. If she is then there's no saving her. I guess it's different for everyone- I'm at the point where I can't really say much about my experience without bursting into tears, but i can't imagine being as energetic and eager to talk about it like she is literally minutes from getting the procedure done, acting like she's 100% cured with no more pressing issues forward? It's odd amd kind of insulting.
I get being relieved and probably smiling a bit in gratefulness... But i can't wrap my head around her using childish terms and google screenshots to express her experience. It's demeaning, somehow? I don't even know if i'm making any sense lol
Also P.S. the Juniper Tree Tapestry has been handed to my Grandma for completion lol it's off my hands now