I think a lot of those clowns are just cunts, their
self diagnosis aside. They haven’t learned manners or basic social skills. They lack insight and can’t seem to take personal responsibility for any behaviour or actions.
Obviously I don’t know you, but from what I read (cos I seem to frequent the threads you’re on too - not a stalker, honest
), you have real self awareness and gumption to see your assessment and treatment through because you want to actually thrive.
My cousin has BPD and she’s the most intense person I know, but in all the best ways (funny, compassionate, helpful) - she just couldn’t see that in herself. She’s reading a book just now ‘Emotional Sensitivity and Intensity by Imi Lo’ and says it’s helping her reframe things. Don’t compare yourself to the TikTok mentalists, they’re a whole different breed.