Thank you for this thread!
Been TTC for over a year now.
Stopped with the pill in October 2019. First months my period always started on the 16th of the month, like clockwork. They were very painful though. When I was late for the first time, I was getting really excited. You can imagine how heartbroken I was when the pregnancy test was negative and my period started a week late... My period kept starting later and later up until the moment I last had them in April this year and then nothing. Pimples galore though and mood was swinging all over the place. I honestly felt like a panda (fertile once a year)...
Went to a gynaecologist in August and got diagnosed with PCOS. In summary that means there's too much testosterone in my body which prevents the little eggs to grow and jump. So no ovulations.
Currently on clomid, which does seem to work. First cycle multiple eggs were ready to jump, so we skipped that cycle (I want a baby, but preferably not plural in one go
). Second cycle only one was getting ready, but got my period again. Currently on 3rd cycle. We didn't see an egg, but my uterus was perfectly prepared. Had blood tests which showed no signs of an ovulation yet.
So unsure if the medication worked this time. But we're trying and keeping our fingers crossed.
TTC has been quite a rollercoaster so far. Thought I was pregnant multiple times, multiple negative pregnancy tests. It honestly sucks so effing bad sometimes
But I have a good support system luckily. My partner, my mom, a few close friends who know and my colleagues and manager are all so incredibly supportive. Count myself lucky.
But hearing from other acquaintances who get pregnant, seemingly without many issues can be quite depressing. I'm happy for them, but it just feels like a punch in the gut ☹
But we remain hopefull
If you read this entire rant, thank you for your time ❤ And good luck on this journey, the quest for a baby can be quite hard, but I'm sure it's worth it in the end.
(Also apologies for any mistakes or errors, writing on my phone and English isn't my first language)