So we're still very much living the "recovering scene kid" life with Lily. I myself love all this, I listen to BMTH, Underoath, Don Broco, Alexisonfire etc.... & still throw in a bit of Linkin Park, Slipknot or The Used now & again and just love all kinds of metal, post hardcore, emo and rock music in general, always have. I wore the big baggy jeans and terrible grungy eyeliner as a teen. Then progressed to studded belts, drainpipes and the severely side sweep fringe... before then embracing the achingly cool indie kid vibe era *WE ARE YOUR FRIENDS, YOU'LL NEVER BE ALONE AGAIN*
I did all the piercings & the band tees. I still go to gigs, I love a festival & still wear my checkerboard Vans & I'll always be that rock kid on the inside, that will never leave. But I'm in my 30s now. I'm also a mother. A homeowner. I work in a corporate office. I like to dress smart, sometimes pretty and feminine & sometimes a bit grungy. I wear pencil skirts and heels at times then at other times I get my dungarees on and I'm drilling holes and putting shelves up. I even occasionally like a bit of house music which the younger me would have died at
by the way I look, people who meet me would have no idea that screaming to heavy metal music on my commute home is my idea of heaven!
My point is your personality can have so many different facets and there can be many versions of you, it's OK to love A LOT of different things and evolve - it's quite frankly boring how Lily just hangs so desperately onto one idea and runs with it as if she is the only one who has ever been that way. Honestly, I get Peter Pan syndrome with this one. Like a couple of years back when she went nuts for micro dermal piercings as if she was the first and only one who discovered these. Everyone I hung out with had these back in 2005. And yeah they're cute but they're
tit and grow out like immediately. And Lily is only like a year or two younger than me, why so late to the party? And then getting a first tattoo very recently... nothing wrong with that but it just has the feel of clutching onto your youth for me?
The grown ass woman just doesn't want to accept she's not 16 anymore. Living in a bedroom parading around in outfits and playing with make up.... still?
It honestly wouldn't even bother me that much if she'd just be nice and pleasant and somewhat grateful for where she is - like honestly, live how the F you want, but her air of entitlement and spoilt brat vibe is grating - does she not realise how lucky she is to earn easy cash by doing barely anything sat on her arse at home or occasionally sticking a dress on and standing by a wall? She never answers anyone's comments and if she does, they're rude or passive answers.
I quite like the new colour of her hair, the highlights she had are nice and do suit her skin tone, but just wish for the LOVE OF GOD she'd learn how to style it properly, she always just looked like she rolled out of bed then spent 2 mins using the straightener on just the fringe but ALL WRONG
